Alchemy
To E.H.
16 de Octubre 2024
Bolton
you look back at me-
glassy buttons on pleated skin.
you love me, unbearably -
I sublimate our sin into deepest din.
the earth’s soil- overabundance
your back so deliciously barren
the will to fertilize your body with violence
as fire seperates the earth- shining light on your warrens.
Ignition- inconsistency- flame’s illusion
you must desire my hearth, my warmth
yet my cold wind quickens your effusion
fullness craves void- transfusion, blood bile, from the north.
winter’s nadir into flower’s spring-
your plaid liver for epiphany feast
enclosing effigies or smoke shapes of bountiful beings
you moan as i feed in you, as beast.
show me your form, sink to your knees-
so small in hands, so large in force
create to destroy and to please
for alchemy, without remorse
Once you are all mine-
Nothing left to find.
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as i wilted
To S.R.
October 18th, 2024
Outside MLC
summer turns to fall
wayward will, my all,
wilt is apogee
fallow in may, did
we dance as we may?
void raves my demise
my hollow, in your eyes
beauty, naturalness
uncreates: emptiness.
dance thus, dimming light
scorn me- spite or might.
I’ll be here, scar-smiled
spewing over black bile.
man mirror of hate
aim to annihilate
In hands, trace of grace
never was- faces, waste.
now reap your harvest-
fell flesh, once fairest,
I failed- who? As ere
sterile want to air.
Remember rising sun
in light of done, fun, come.
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Suffering
October 21st, 2024
Bolton back porch
Suffering is what I do to be free
Always present, like a cottage so warm
Suffering is who I am to be me
As knave, natural into my skin was born
Suffering is how I become as whole
Melted chocolate, eat like a giddy kid
Suffering is what i want with my soul
Transform my mind, more than what I did.
Suffering is the kiss of mother-
Suffering is what I give to another.
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Untitled
October 29th, 2024
Bolton back porch
If you gather-gained, gilt gleaned
My bounty-body, blessed be the union.
Love need not purchase as palliative partners
Seminal shareholders of the sacred store.
My love, on dire discount, discharge desperate
Seeks caring customer, not costly minded.
Pounds of flesh form-fair
Excise with bounty-blood, fairbinding to the golden hand.
Hormones swelling sterile songs plucked
Not want to waste, warriors empty hearted.
Your ineffervescent effigy eliminated
The gold-adorned day, not doughty for night.
Basking in brain joy, jugular joined to a cold glow.
Yet arrogant apollo arrives rapciously
Day-drowned, deeds of nox all lost.
Such the magnamious miserably shivers
Cold dear-dark drunk from black waves.
Poorly formed-father, fortune failed mother
Hellish hole of the hearts damnation
Hold on to heat, however it comes.
Chivalric crags, heathen heights,
Middle ole me, to mediocrity-
I’ll smile with you in the night.